May you let your life always flow through and on…. May you let your wholeness and love always be present(ed).
I come here conflicted. I see this very post that I started a few days ago sitting in the ‘draft’ pile of blogposts. The one sentence above and the picture below.
I resist and feel hesitant. I do not want to be sharing ‘what is’ just now in my life.
I lost the last of my four dogs. I hear myself telling myself that she was the last connection to my life with my child growing up. With a house that I loved. With parties and family and friends visiting me at “Shambala” which is what we named this house. Shambala meaning ‘a place of peace and harmony for all living creatures’ in Sanskrit.
Tiffany was my last of the four dogs that lived there with us at one time. Tiffany became my left arm kind of sort of and was always with me. She was my buddy and friend when my husband travelled. She was my mainstay when I was home alone. She was only 5 pounds and her energy and love fully filled every room she entered, everything we did together and, I truly felt, was my connection to my daughter that lives far away from me as she has grown and now lives as an awesome and independent woman.
It was not a fun last two days and it was a great gift as well. It was very hard and it harbored and created great love.
So, I sit with this; process this; transform with this and am open to embrace this change within myself and my life as best I can.
I truly felt part of my brain shut down to help me through. She is in my heart now. She is with my other three dogs and our cats and all of our other furry pets and creatures… Birds, rabbits, guinea hens, fish (saltwater and pond), hamsters and hermit crabs. Tiffany stayed and now she had to leave.
I feel God’s presence. I trust the universe’s plan. I know the timing must be right.
Someone told me this morning that “Our bodies play a song of emotion and I listen.” How beautiful is this. Jimmie Lene Reed.
So, as I honor what I am feeling, my needs and this great change, I listen. I let love lead me. I trust the process and I trust myself in this process as best as I can. I am present.
May you honor what you are feeling, your needs and your life. May you listen. May you let love lead. May you trust the process of life and trust yourself in the process; as best and as often as you can.
May you stay present.
