I want to go to the gym today. I want to do weightlifting and cardio work.
I don’t want to put sneakers on (as it is hard for my hands and not too comfy for my feet) and I don’t want to put exercise clothing on as the tightness of the material is hard for me to ‘put in place’ so to speak. My skin already feels so tight around my own bones.
The treadmill calls me. The weight machines call me. Me, who lived in the gym a lot of my life is scared to enter the big room with new and unknown equipment. What if I can’t do it… What if I get dizzy… What if… What if… What if…
What if I succeed… And, chances are pretty great that I will.
So, as my pilates instructor is on vacation today, what will I do…
I’m half dressed in workout wear and half dressed in comfort wear. Ha.
What will I do…
I will walk through and do my best. I will love myself through. I will believe in myself. I will honor where I’m at. I will walk forward with gentle strength.
May you love yourself through. May you believe in yourself. May you honor where you are at. May you walk through with gentle strength.
It is the best and most loving [‘unharsh’] thing to do…
May we be our own best friends and go gently while nudging yourself and open to walking forward into what you want. May you fly…
Photo by Jess