As I type the name of this post, I remember the ‘Achy Breaky Heart’ song and dance by Billy Ray Cyrus. What fun that was! It was all the hype. I used to have it in my aerobic classes. !
And, as it is what came to my mind when I sat here at the computer, ‘achy’ is what I am feeling.
It is a beautiful blue sky day. There is a gentle breeze and everything looks so alive. I love it. I am grateful for it.
It feels like my body is screaming. I read somewhere that scleroderma can feel like a constant toothache under the skin. This feels true to me. It is like my skin is too small for my bones and is constantly being stretched and tightened. It hurts.
I keep ‘dreaming’ that I will wake up one day and I will be ‘normal’ (whatever that is) again and not be so bogged down with discomfort. I will once again look beyond this part of me and just know, be and do better. Today is not this day.
I do know I can love through. I do know I can be true through. I do know I connect to all that is here for me to connect to just now. I do know that I could be so much worse off. I do know that I could be better off. I do know that this is what is my ‘cross to bear’. We all have at least one.
It is our human way. … until it is not.
I am grateful for blue skies. I am grateful for warm temperatures. I am grateful for love. I am grateful for loving and caring people. I am grateful for all that I have learned.
Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, whatever you are feeling, may you see and know gratefulness through any and all of your achy, breaky moments.
